Numb.

That’s the best word I can describe my feelings after a US House of Representatives member gets shot and several innocent bystanders die by the same gunman.

I don’t know the man’s rationale, or even if he had one, but when I see the cyclonic propaganda machines that is cable news already up and running, telling their publics that of course, real Americans like them would never do anything like this, despite the hours upon hours upon hours of violence-inspiring rhetoric that is broadcasted every day of the year, for every hour.

I don’t know what to feel.

I feel grief for the families.

I feel anger against those whose negligence or direct action caused this.

I feel like walking up to those with smug looks on their faces, those who accept partisan politics of their chosen party without question or hesitation, and shaking them, asking them “Is this the world you want?”

And then I go numb.

For now kids, here’s a piece of classical music that somehow invokes my sense of outrage and justice more than I can put into words right now.